I was talking to someone the other day who was interested in my classes. I love the internet, but I also love talking to real live people because they remind me of why I do what I do!
In this case, this person reminded me of why I started on my path and so I’m writing to share that with you. Sometimes I forget how far I’ve come– from being an unconscious “energy magnet” to being a professional intuitive and teacher today. From being overwhelmed by people to finding love and clear boundaries…. Ahhh!
In this person’s words, her family was “driving her nuts”. She felt so sensitive to other people’s energy, that it was hard to enjoy those closest to her. She wanted to get away. She also had health problems. Often, if there is something we haven’t dealt with, our bodies or careers or something in our life (sometimes many things) break down and start screaming at us.
As I listened to this woman, I flashed back to 1995. I was living in Boulder, CO and going to grad school. My apartment building was like an unofficial “dorm” for students at the school, so I would see people I knew every time I walked out the door.
These were like-minded people who I appreciated, but I could barely stand it. I would get so angry (at nothing in particular), that I’d drive 17 miles up Boulder Canyon, a 3,000 foot climb up to 10,000 feet so I could go hiking and be alone. I had to that often just to feel sane.
Before I learned the meditations I do today, getting as far from other people as I could was the only way I knew to manage my sensitivity.
Ouch. As you might imagine, my heart hurt. I went about 10 years without a partner. It was difficult for me to commit to a job, and I wasn’t really sure what I wanted to do.
Then came the holidays in 1999, when I decided to study clairvoyance and energy healing. I had gone to spend Christmas with my family in Florida and one night while I was there, the phone rang.
My father picked it up, drunk and slurring his words, as was typical back then. I made out enough of the conversation to tell that it was my landlady in Colorado calling to say that my apartment had flooded. They were working on it, but here I was 2,000 miles away from my wet things and dealing with my father’s “energy swamp” on top of it.
Talk about things in your life breaking down to get your attention! I was humiliated and shaken. But I had reached a turning point.
From that point forward, I vowed to make my well-being a priority, no matter what happened around me. No matter anyone else around me chose– family or not.
This was huge, because I had lived my life up until that point healing other people unconsciously. I have heard that anger indicates a boundary violation, and in my case I did not have my own psychic boundaries in place.
The meditations I learned changed that. I spent a year clearing other people’s energy out of my space, and I started to feel like myself again. I started to write songs and play guitar on stage, eventually even touring around the country. I started to have better relationships. I was having fun!
One day around the end of my first year of clairvoyant training, my Dad called. He was drunk and obnoxious. I told him I was not available to talk when he was like that, and I hung up.
I think it was just a few weeks later that my Mom called. “Your Dad stopped drinking,” she said. He had quit cold turkey and hasn’t looked back since. To this day, he says it was because of something his doctor told him. I can’t help but think it was because of all my energy clearing.
My father and I are actually very similar. He was very sensitive, and had a lot of pressure at work. I’m sure he wanted to scream inside much of the time, and he had no “psychic school”.
My mountaintop was his Jack Daniels– the best getaway he could find at the time.
Besides recovering my relationship with my Dad, the lesson I learned here was priceless: When we honor our own energy, other people will figure out their own stuff faster.
I learned to stop healing others, but first I had to recognize that I was an energy magnet! That’s what meditation taught me. That’s what learning to be clairvoyant taught me. And then I could make use of my gifts rather than letting them keep me stuck.
I learned to read others, but I was already good at that- LOL. Practicing with the encouragement of a class totally helped me trust it though, because person after person told me I was accurate. However, the biggest payoff was getting free to live my own life.
If you could use a little energy clearing yourself, I invite you to try this exercise:
- Sit in a quiet spot with your feet flat on the floor and close your eyes.
- Start to notice your breath, and allow it to get smoother and deeper. Soften your body on each exhale, and sit a little taller as you inhale.
- Imagine there is a magic soap bubble out in front of you, like one you might have blown as a kid with a magic wand. Allow this to be around 3 feet out in front of you.
- With your next deep breath, allow the bubble to simply “vaccuum” out of you anyone else’s energy. Anyone else’s fear, grief, anger, desires, goals, agendas or projections.
- Continue this as long as you’d like. You can choose to release specific people or energies, or anything that’s keeping you stuck in a certain area of your life.
- When you’re done, open your eyes and notice if you feel any lighter. Is anything different?
Since we’re about to start the new “Awaken Your Clairvoyance” and “Meditation 101” Programs, I’ve been talking with people who are interested. Some have shared stories like, “Ann, I had a reading with you 7 years ago and you told me about this man who is now my husband!” Or, “Ann, I feel like you understand me like no one else does.”
What a gift to hear these words! And none of it would have happened if I was alone on the mountaintop or letting Jack Daniels hang out in my aura. 🙂
The world needs your sensitive energy! Let me know if you’d like to talk and explore how to make that happen.